The Journey

On this endless winding road with my heart in my pocket. I can’t help but think I’m on this earth for a purpose and that purpose is unknown. But I am yet on this winding road with my heart in my pocket thinking of the purpose I have in life. The dangers I face are all in my head and the love I hope to find is in my heart but I can’t help but think theirs something out there for me to find. In this life I’ve made many mistakes and in this journey I’m about to take I want to for once do right by myself. Only time will tell what this journey has to offer and in the journey the life lessons I will learn.

Complicated Life

This life I’m living isn’t what I thought I would chose. I can’t count on anyone but myself let alone deal with this pain in my chest. I’ve lost everything and I can’t contemplate how to turn back time and start the clock all over again. God please save me from all this pain and sorrow. Idk how much I can take?

The Story Of My Life

I lay there to sing and turning thinking “what happened to me” and i realize that the fears, my harsh reality and each day i wander my thoughts. Trying to figure out when it went all wrong and at no point do i know exactly when and how it happened but i can’t stop thinking about it and i can’t figure anything out and it scares me. The pain consumes me and i have no idea how to move on or live with the things i’ve done, yet i’ve always held things in and never been able to accept most things or move on and for that i am broken. In the past 5 years i have accepted that and its odd and very confusing to accept and explain, a part of me wants to let go and the other wants me to move on and start my life over. But how can i do that when i’ve made all of these mistakes and letting go? Who knows what it would do and would it change me IDk? i need help and idk what to do or how to forget…. maybe im lost forever.